Distractions and Detours in L.A.

Los Angeles is a fascintating place. Some of us (me) arrive here fresh of the plane with big dreams, confidence and a big serving of cluelessness. Then L.A. starts to play and have fun with you. A few crazy roommates, bouncing from job to job, winding up at weird parties wondering how the hell you got there? Given a glimpse into the life of the obnoxiously wealthy only to return to your hand to mouth existance, offers of money to be made and great opportunites but once the job is done there is no paycheck to be found and all of a sudden the focus, determination and confidance is whoosh! Out the window and you're lucky if you can remember your own name let alone what you're doing with your life and keeping track of your goals. In the midst of my whirling waltz of confusion, feeling like the girl with the red shoes, the music was thankfully stopped by my power team of AWs (Awesome Women otherwise known as my friends) two of them to be exact. They tenderly and candidly told me, "girl you are all over the place doing this for that person, working here for free, there for free and not one of these places has anything to do with your dream of acting". My wonderful response, "yeah but, but, um, oh......you guys are right". So I may have wondered into this city with stars in my eyes clueless and confused and got way, WAY, WAY off track but hey I'm still here. I'm refocused, determined and ready to play! Hell, I'm an actor I know how to play.

Cheers!
The Criogirl

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Sunshine & Shenanigans!!!

I'm a year older!!!!!!!!WOHOOOOOO!!!!!(this is where you hear the brass band playing and the city cheering). Yes today commemorates when I decided to venture forth and begin this journey of life. I must say after my past funk earlier this month, June is turning around and promising to be quite a fun month. I guess the sun is beginning to shine through. What happened? To be honest I'm not quite sure. Maybe it was the ridiculous birthday party on Saturday that went on until 7am (my neighbors were lovin' me) or on a more profound level perhaps it was admitting I was in a funk instead of trying to Pollyanna my way out of my emotions and once I said it aloud all of a sudden things weren't so bad. Now I went through my state of having no motivation whatsoever but I guess you need that sometimes to just ground yourself, reflect, take a break from life....hmmm what I did notice is that usually when a lot of things are going wrong right there is me tightly holding on to stuff that I'm just not quite ready to let go of. The funny thing with the whole letting go process is that once that particular attachment is gone, I whine, panic, get upset and inevitably something new fascinating and sometimes even life changing comes along that wouldn't have happened unless said attachment was not let go of. So to the funky, gloomy times while I may not enjoy them, I thank them because it seems like when all hell is breaking loose in life, in come charging the universal commando force of guardian angels whisking you to higher heights be it new opportunities, a new outlook on life or friends who will listen to your whiny ass every single day and with lots of love tell you to get over it. I made it to another year to keep on going and trusting that every minute is going to be an adventure even when I'm scared out of my wits. The sunshine is here and I'm ready for it!

Cheers and Love,
The Criogirl

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June Gloom in Full Effect

June Gloom is a term that I've only heard here in Los Angeles. Basically the city is covered by one big, gray cloud that just lingers. For the past few weeks I've been walking with my head held high, positive outlook on life and then smack I entered my emotional June Gloom. Nothing new really the same old, same old naggings that pop up about the current status of my life, the constant struggle for money, career up in the air and it doesn't help when you have family members around you having babies, getting married and buying houses and you're still living in a studio apartment, single and the only significant male in your life has four legs and fur. And I chose this path because....I guess this gloom is also hieghtened by my upcoming birthday and the general feeling that I have no idea where my life is going. So I feel like retreating, entering hermit mode and just saying F@#% It All!!! But I know at the end of the day I will get out of my funk, come out with some new insights, realisations, hopefully a whole new lease on life and answers to some of the questions swirling around my head because I always have a choice. So I'll accept and welcome the funk because just like the cloud during June Gloom, just as suddenly as it appaears and lingers it vanishes and the sun comes blazing through. I'm ready for the blaze.

Peace and Love,
The Criogirl

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